今早，上班的途中听着mp3, 耳机传来一首歌。。
不知为何， 那一刻， 心弦被吉他的旋律和第一句歌词拨动了。
心， 有点酸。
“如果我们，从来没有遇见，
如果那一天，你没多看我一眼。。。”
脑海里浮现了一些画面。
想起了那时在 Sungei Buloh Wetland Reserve 时，
我跟随着自己的步伐，慢慢地观察周遭的自然景色。。
慢慢地用相机取景。
而他，没有相机也不喜欢拍照。。
却也和我一样放慢脚步， 走得很慢， 沉静在大自然的宁静中。
有一回， 我站在同一处取景， 停留了许久。。
当我终于拍到一个满意的镜头时，
带着抱歉的表情，我快步带跑地往前去。
他，其实也就站在不远处。
当他看到我急忙的样子，
脸上没有一丝的生气或不耐烦的表情。
相反的，他露出了一脸的微笑，
仿佛正在告诉我，
‘别急，没事。 你慢慢拍， 我自得其乐！’
他并不帅， 但他的微笑总是带着暖意。
他的耐心， 让我觉得和他相处时， 时间是属于我们的。
那一次和他聊到当时令我不开心的工作，
为了避免那种‘哀伤’ 的气氛持续地蔓延，
他突然说：“Let's celebrate! Think of a place for dinner! Crystal jade?”
那餐他请客，他说他刚拿了花红。
他的用心和诚心，我感受到了。
不知不觉， 从开始认识对方到现在， 一年的时间就这样过去了。
我们还是有在facebook上聊天。。。
从重前的每隔几天， 到几个星期，
到现在的几个月。。。
(是我延迟答复， 刻意与不刻意之间。
我相信他只是一个对每个人都很好的好人，
不想让自己还带着什么期望或希望。。。）
该是时候， 答复他七月facebook的message ~
Saturday, 23 August 2014
Wednesday, 23 April 2014
Yeah... 2014, Bring it On! ;)
Oh wow... my first post in 2014 is in April!
I guess that's a good sign...
which shows I must have been pretty busy or pretty busy being lazy! Haha.
The year of 2014 has been good to me thus far.. :)
(and I couldn't asked for more ~)
It has been a year of leaving my comfort zone... of breakthrough(s)... of being more of an opportunist rather than a pessimist!
A summary of the months which have whizzed past: -
Jan 14 - Finally, I concluded a chapter in my life. Freed myself from my super micro-managed boss at last! Oh nooo... to put it correctly, she's the one who actually freed me instead! (Thank You ah, Boss! I am grateful to you for giving that 'final push' which I needed to step out of my comfort zone.) Sarcasm aside, oh well... I do have to sincerely thank her for recruiting me at a time when I needed a stable income. The stable income which I received over the past 2 and 1/2 years have allowed me to further my art education in NAFA for the last 2 years. In return, the continuing education has benefited me immensely...the connection made with like-minded people who shared similar interest.. which then led to participations in group art exhibitions and mural paintings!
So, all in all... I'm really happy to leave. Goodbye to the long journey to and fro from workplace. Goodbye to sleepy and grumpy mornings...Goodbye to squeezy train rides ... Goodbye to never-ending paperwork ... Goodbye to endless office politics and gossips ... Goodbye to the not-so-appreciative bosses whom only look at sales figures and mostly gave credit to the sales team...
An End is the start of a new beginning! Cheers~
Feb 14 - Had a good break! Designed poster for 'Freshly Extracted II' group art exhibition. My first group art exhibition which is not related to charity! :D Another small step forward. A month of doing my Chinese Painting works at my leisure pace (oh well, it seems that it has always been done leisurely... hahaha) and working on my exhibited pieces...
It did seem to be some kind of God's will, for me to leave end of January and thus I had all the time in February to prepare and work on my paintings for the exhibition! I couldn't imagined having to split my time into my day-time job and working on my exhibition pieces, have I not resigned. That would be a mad rush. I had full support from family and friends ...my parents came on the opening night, so did my sister's family...nephew and niece... and the girls. Not sure how my parents felt towards my abstract works ...I hope I did them some proud.. even if they had not felt much for my works, that's ok. Their presences, together with the rest who came ... you guys ... your presences meant a lot to me in this course of journey which I am pursuing. Thank You just doesn't seem enough.
Mar 14 - This was a pretty Exciting month! I went to Hong Kong with a guy whom I wasn't familiar with! Hahahaha... my decision shocked myself and my friends. I guess it got to be one of my most impromptu decisions and probably one of the 'craziest' too! :P Oh well... unlike watching a TV drama, nothing 'truly exciting' happened during the HK trip, lol! ( To fast forward and summarise... I guess we are too different. He's too fast, logical, rational, analytical and kind of impatient ... while I am tooooo slow, kind of patient, and not very logical at times...or I chose not to be!) However, I truly enjoyed the Hong Kong trip! Probably the best Hong Kong trip to date :) Bought many new clothes at 'dirt cheap' prices which did not compromise much on quality... I love to shop alone I guess! My 3rd trip to HK and I finally took the tram and went up to The Peak to view the skyline of Hong Kong!! Woww...impressive.. and very very cold (I dressed too little for the weather). Finally went to visit the HK art museum too and hiked Dragon's Back mountain!! The hike was a highlight and so totally worth it! The weather was kind to us too! Oh and dim sum , breakfast, dinner... good food, good dessert! Had a really nice morning stroll in the flower and goldfish markets as well. Took many photos (some satisfying results!) and get to play with my newly-acquired mirrorless camera. Glad to explore Hong Kong in a way which I never get to discover before! And I love the hostel which I stayed in...super convenient location! Cozy room with funky design... mattress was abit hard and walls were not sound-proof.. but that didn't bother me. I still managed to sleep pretty well... I'm such a Pigggg!! Zzz.
Not long after I returned from HK.. I continued my job hunt (more actively) and tadaaaaa!!!
Hello to a new beginning! Felt great to work again after a good break. :D
April 14 - It's been a month since I started to work in the art gallery. So far, I feel good about the job. I am happy. (Ah yes, pardon me for a lack of description...I think the word 'happy' speaks volume.) I have to work 6 days a week which include Saturdays, public holidays and alternate Sundays... I get basic number of annual leave and minimal employee's benefit. (A huge difference from my previous job) However, I am not complaining... because being happy with what you are doing simply outweighs the rest, at least that applies to me.
Hello to short journey to and fro from workplace... Hello to late mornings ... Hello to breakfasts!! (I hardly had the luxury to take breakfast in my previous workplace...every morning was a marathon rush to work and once I reached my desk...the ambience was such that it's not conducive for eating...it's like, oh I have to start clearing my emails now... oh I have to start on the paperwork now...) Hence, it was truly a blessing to start work in the late morning.. and to have the time to grab hot Milo / Teh C Siew Dai / just any drink together with any bread or other stuff for breakfast. Eating breakfast has become part of my daily routine! =) And that makes me feel good somehow.
- To be continued -
I guess that's a good sign...
which shows I must have been pretty busy or pretty busy being lazy! Haha.
The year of 2014 has been good to me thus far.. :)
(and I couldn't asked for more ~)
It has been a year of leaving my comfort zone... of breakthrough(s)... of being more of an opportunist rather than a pessimist!
A summary of the months which have whizzed past: -
Jan 14 - Finally, I concluded a chapter in my life. Freed myself from my super micro-managed boss at last! Oh nooo... to put it correctly, she's the one who actually freed me instead! (Thank You ah, Boss! I am grateful to you for giving that 'final push' which I needed to step out of my comfort zone.) Sarcasm aside, oh well... I do have to sincerely thank her for recruiting me at a time when I needed a stable income. The stable income which I received over the past 2 and 1/2 years have allowed me to further my art education in NAFA for the last 2 years. In return, the continuing education has benefited me immensely...the connection made with like-minded people who shared similar interest.. which then led to participations in group art exhibitions and mural paintings!
So, all in all... I'm really happy to leave. Goodbye to the long journey to and fro from workplace. Goodbye to sleepy and grumpy mornings...Goodbye to squeezy train rides ... Goodbye to never-ending paperwork ... Goodbye to endless office politics and gossips ... Goodbye to the not-so-appreciative bosses whom only look at sales figures and mostly gave credit to the sales team...
An End is the start of a new beginning! Cheers~
Feb 14 - Had a good break! Designed poster for 'Freshly Extracted II' group art exhibition. My first group art exhibition which is not related to charity! :D Another small step forward. A month of doing my Chinese Painting works at my leisure pace (oh well, it seems that it has always been done leisurely... hahaha) and working on my exhibited pieces...
It did seem to be some kind of God's will, for me to leave end of January and thus I had all the time in February to prepare and work on my paintings for the exhibition! I couldn't imagined having to split my time into my day-time job and working on my exhibition pieces, have I not resigned. That would be a mad rush. I had full support from family and friends ...my parents came on the opening night, so did my sister's family...nephew and niece... and the girls. Not sure how my parents felt towards my abstract works ...I hope I did them some proud.. even if they had not felt much for my works, that's ok. Their presences, together with the rest who came ... you guys ... your presences meant a lot to me in this course of journey which I am pursuing. Thank You just doesn't seem enough.
Mar 14 - This was a pretty Exciting month! I went to Hong Kong with a guy whom I wasn't familiar with! Hahahaha... my decision shocked myself and my friends. I guess it got to be one of my most impromptu decisions and probably one of the 'craziest' too! :P Oh well... unlike watching a TV drama, nothing 'truly exciting' happened during the HK trip, lol! ( To fast forward and summarise... I guess we are too different. He's too fast, logical, rational, analytical and kind of impatient ... while I am tooooo slow, kind of patient, and not very logical at times...or I chose not to be!) However, I truly enjoyed the Hong Kong trip! Probably the best Hong Kong trip to date :) Bought many new clothes at 'dirt cheap' prices which did not compromise much on quality... I love to shop alone I guess! My 3rd trip to HK and I finally took the tram and went up to The Peak to view the skyline of Hong Kong!! Woww...impressive.. and very very cold (I dressed too little for the weather). Finally went to visit the HK art museum too and hiked Dragon's Back mountain!! The hike was a highlight and so totally worth it! The weather was kind to us too! Oh and dim sum , breakfast, dinner... good food, good dessert! Had a really nice morning stroll in the flower and goldfish markets as well. Took many photos (some satisfying results!) and get to play with my newly-acquired mirrorless camera. Glad to explore Hong Kong in a way which I never get to discover before! And I love the hostel which I stayed in...super convenient location! Cozy room with funky design... mattress was abit hard and walls were not sound-proof.. but that didn't bother me. I still managed to sleep pretty well... I'm such a Pigggg!! Zzz.
Not long after I returned from HK.. I continued my job hunt (more actively) and tadaaaaa!!!
Hello to a new beginning! Felt great to work again after a good break. :D
April 14 - It's been a month since I started to work in the art gallery. So far, I feel good about the job. I am happy. (Ah yes, pardon me for a lack of description...I think the word 'happy' speaks volume.) I have to work 6 days a week which include Saturdays, public holidays and alternate Sundays... I get basic number of annual leave and minimal employee's benefit. (A huge difference from my previous job) However, I am not complaining... because being happy with what you are doing simply outweighs the rest, at least that applies to me.
Hello to short journey to and fro from workplace... Hello to late mornings ... Hello to breakfasts!! (I hardly had the luxury to take breakfast in my previous workplace...every morning was a marathon rush to work and once I reached my desk...the ambience was such that it's not conducive for eating...it's like, oh I have to start clearing my emails now... oh I have to start on the paperwork now...) Hence, it was truly a blessing to start work in the late morning.. and to have the time to grab hot Milo / Teh C Siew Dai / just any drink together with any bread or other stuff for breakfast. Eating breakfast has become part of my daily routine! =) And that makes me feel good somehow.
- To be continued -
Wednesday, 25 September 2013
我。
我想。。。就到此为止吧。
虽然他并没有表态，
虽然并没有一个结论。。。
或许，有些事也不须要交代得太清楚。
没有开花结果，
但也没有损失啊。
无形中，多了一个诚恳的朋友！＝）
感谢他，在我看似沉闷的生活里，
激起了小小的涟漪。
我会记得， 那天我们第一次相遇。。。
沿着轨道遗留的痕迹，
一段约6.6公里的路，
我们这两位初次见面的 '陌生人'，
穿梭于草丛，碎石和泥巴间，
就这样一路走了（聊了）4小时多。
很开心，在这段彼此交流的日子里，
我就是我。
There is no pretence.
没有什么，比这个更重要。
逝去的初恋，活得太不像自己，
活在那位女生的影子里。
好辛苦又觉得有点委屈。
完全的迷失自己。
好喜欢张国荣的这首歌，'我'。
在演唱会上穿高跟鞋、穿浴袍、留长发。。。
明星能那样赤裸裸地表现自己，须要勇气吧？
这是除了我的最爱曲 '追' 之外， 听了特别有感触的歌。
作词：林夕 作曲：张国荣
I Am What I Am
我永远都爱这样的我
快乐是 快乐的方式不只一种
最荣幸是 谁都是造物者的光荣
不用闪躲 为我喜欢的生活而活
不用粉墨 就站在光明的角落
我就是我 是颜色不一样的烟火
天空海阔 要做最坚强的泡沫
我喜欢我 让蔷薇开出一种结果
孤独的沙漠里 一样盛放的赤裸裸
多么高兴 在琉璃屋中快乐生活
对世界说 什么是光明和磊落
我就是我 是颜色不一样的烟火
天空海阔 要做最坚强的泡沫
我喜欢我 让蔷薇开出一种结果
孤独的沙漠里 一样盛放的赤裸裸
虽然他并没有表态，
虽然并没有一个结论。。。
或许，有些事也不须要交代得太清楚。
没有开花结果，
但也没有损失啊。
无形中，多了一个诚恳的朋友！＝）
感谢他，在我看似沉闷的生活里，
激起了小小的涟漪。
我会记得， 那天我们第一次相遇。。。
沿着轨道遗留的痕迹，
一段约6.6公里的路，
我们这两位初次见面的 '陌生人'，
穿梭于草丛，碎石和泥巴间，
就这样一路走了（聊了）4小时多。
很开心，在这段彼此交流的日子里，
我就是我。
There is no pretence.
没有什么，比这个更重要。
逝去的初恋，活得太不像自己，
活在那位女生的影子里。
好辛苦又觉得有点委屈。
完全的迷失自己。
好喜欢张国荣的这首歌，'我'。
在演唱会上穿高跟鞋、穿浴袍、留长发。。。
明星能那样赤裸裸地表现自己，须要勇气吧？
这是除了我的最爱曲 '追' 之外， 听了特别有感触的歌。
作词：林夕 作曲：张国荣
I Am What I Am
我永远都爱这样的我
快乐是 快乐的方式不只一种
最荣幸是 谁都是造物者的光荣
不用闪躲 为我喜欢的生活而活
不用粉墨 就站在光明的角落
我就是我 是颜色不一样的烟火
天空海阔 要做最坚强的泡沫
我喜欢我 让蔷薇开出一种结果
孤独的沙漠里 一样盛放的赤裸裸
多么高兴 在琉璃屋中快乐生活
对世界说 什么是光明和磊落
我就是我 是颜色不一样的烟火
天空海阔 要做最坚强的泡沫
我喜欢我 让蔷薇开出一种结果
孤独的沙漠里 一样盛放的赤裸裸
Thursday, 5 September 2013
From Western Abstract Painting to Chinese Painting
It's Wednesday!~ Hooray!
It's the day of the week that keeps my sanity in check...
Have been taking part-time courses for consecutive 2 years.
From Western Abstract Painting to the on-going Chinese Painting class.
Not sure what I am doing here with these classes ...
One thing I do know...
Without them, my life would be sadder.
Trapped in the monotonous cycle of work.
Arghhhh...what's stopping me?
Quit...QuIT...C'mon just QUIT the job!
Yes, serving 3 months notice period make no sense...
The fear of not being able to find the next job soon...
The fear of not knowing what to do next...
The fear of.................
"Freedom is having the courage to take the first step,
leaving your fears behind."
Well, I came up with the line above.
Yet I am not doing it.
I'm such a hypocrite!
It's September already.
Last year, I made a promise to myself that I am gonna leave the job by end of this year.
Yes, just do it!
I believe I will find my courage to tender by then!
I have read the following question quite a couple of times:
"what will you do if you discover that you only have say 3 mths, 6 mths or even a year to live?"
The immediate ans that comes to my mind:
"I would quit my current job."
It's the day of the week that keeps my sanity in check...
Have been taking part-time courses for consecutive 2 years.
From Western Abstract Painting to the on-going Chinese Painting class.
Not sure what I am doing here with these classes ...
One thing I do know...
Without them, my life would be sadder.
Trapped in the monotonous cycle of work.
Arghhhh...what's stopping me?
Quit...QuIT...C'mon just QUIT the job!
Yes, serving 3 months notice period make no sense...
The fear of not being able to find the next job soon...
The fear of not knowing what to do next...
The fear of.................
"Freedom is having the courage to take the first step,
leaving your fears behind."
Well, I came up with the line above.
Yet I am not doing it.
I'm such a hypocrite!
It's September already.
Last year, I made a promise to myself that I am gonna leave the job by end of this year.
Yes, just do it!
I believe I will find my courage to tender by then!
I have read the following question quite a couple of times:
"what will you do if you discover that you only have say 3 mths, 6 mths or even a year to live?"
The immediate ans that comes to my mind:
"I would quit my current job."
Friday, 29 March 2013
Omg... 三月都快要过去了！
啊！！ 怎么办呢？！ 时间一点一点地流失。。。我的什么 '2013年的计划' 却自从一月份去了不同的 flea markets 考察后就好像从此没什么进展！！！
看来， 没有 '纪律' 地生活着。。。真是我最大的弱点！
对于目前的工作， 越来越力不从心。
Paperwork， data entry 之类的 '杂物事' 。。。
真的很讨厌。 想把它们一把火给烧掉！
哎， 时不时都得催眠自己。。。
'薪水。 维持生活。 薪水。 维持生活。。。'
只有在画画， 创作的时候。。。
我是最自由的。
可以不睡不吃也觉得很快乐， 不知道该怎么说。。。
天啊， 我还能做些什么呢？
读过一篇关于李安的故事。
他的太太曾经这样对他说：
“我一直就相信，人只要有一项长处就足够了，你的长处就是拍电影。学计算机的人那么多，又不差你李安一个，你要想拿到奥斯卡的小金人，就一定要保证心里有梦想。”
读了后蛮感动的。。。
对啊， 做 data entry， paperwork 的人那么多， 又不差我一个李佩佩。。。哈哈哈哈！
不过， 问题是。。。老天， 哪里需要我啊？
看来， 没有 '纪律' 地生活着。。。真是我最大的弱点！
对于目前的工作， 越来越力不从心。
Paperwork， data entry 之类的 '杂物事' 。。。
真的很讨厌。 想把它们一把火给烧掉！
哎， 时不时都得催眠自己。。。
'薪水。 维持生活。 薪水。 维持生活。。。'
只有在画画， 创作的时候。。。
我是最自由的。
可以不睡不吃也觉得很快乐， 不知道该怎么说。。。
天啊， 我还能做些什么呢？
读过一篇关于李安的故事。
他的太太曾经这样对他说：
“我一直就相信，人只要有一项长处就足够了，你的长处就是拍电影。学计算机的人那么多，又不差你李安一个，你要想拿到奥斯卡的小金人，就一定要保证心里有梦想。”
读了后蛮感动的。。。
对啊， 做 data entry， paperwork 的人那么多， 又不差我一个李佩佩。。。哈哈哈哈！
不过， 问题是。。。老天， 哪里需要我啊？
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| 画画于我。 快乐时光 ：） |
Monday, 28 January 2013
好久不见。
开心的一天！：）
今午，和已有大概六年没有相见的一位朋友， 相约叙旧。
那是一位在2006年的 Singapore Biennale 工作时认识的同事。 当时， 我们倆也是聊得最投缘的工作火伴。 大概是因为彼此都对美术有着极大的兴趣吧。。。
她因为在 Facebook 上看到我所 post 的一些抽象画， 知道我正在进修而想了解更多关于我的课程。
见面后， 没有因为好久不见的尴尬或不自在。。。
而是一直滔滔不绝地从 2pm 聊到 almost 6pm！
其中， 我与她分享了我的所谓 '2013年的 计划' － venturing into handmade craft。
她听了后， 也与我分享了她所知道的一些能帮助手工制作的道具！
啊， 那道具没听过 （蛮贵啊！不过好像很实用！得去research多一些～）。
不管日后会不会派上用场，
对我而言， 那是新的知识。。。
因为叙旧、分享而有了未知的收获！＝）
我一直在想， 这世界那么大。。却又那么小，
在我们生命里相遇， 守候或离开的那些人。。
是不是上天早有安排啊？
“Some people come into your lives as blessings,
Others come into your lives as lessons."
今午，和已有大概六年没有相见的一位朋友， 相约叙旧。
那是一位在2006年的 Singapore Biennale 工作时认识的同事。 当时， 我们倆也是聊得最投缘的工作火伴。 大概是因为彼此都对美术有着极大的兴趣吧。。。
她因为在 Facebook 上看到我所 post 的一些抽象画， 知道我正在进修而想了解更多关于我的课程。
见面后， 没有因为好久不见的尴尬或不自在。。。
而是一直滔滔不绝地从 2pm 聊到 almost 6pm！
其中， 我与她分享了我的所谓 '2013年的 计划' － venturing into handmade craft。
她听了后， 也与我分享了她所知道的一些能帮助手工制作的道具！
啊， 那道具没听过 （蛮贵啊！不过好像很实用！得去research多一些～）。
不管日后会不会派上用场，
对我而言， 那是新的知识。。。
因为叙旧、分享而有了未知的收获！＝）
我一直在想， 这世界那么大。。却又那么小，
在我们生命里相遇， 守候或离开的那些人。。
是不是上天早有安排啊？
“Some people come into your lives as blessings,
Others come into your lives as lessons."
Monday, 21 January 2013
2013 , 一定要更精彩!
2012 年。。。过得还不错。
实现了一些些事。
一月，去了台湾和香港， 台北101的烟火令人难忘。
十月，去了韩国，秋叶好美。
七月， 报读了 Nafa part-time abstract art painting course。
( 想了好多年， 终于有经济能力去提升自己！）
十一月， 第一次有画作展现在大众面前。
第一次有人买我的画作。
(啊， 感觉人生已没有什么遗憾了～哈哈！）
2013年。。。希望实现多一些些事。
一月, 我去了三个 craft / flea markets dedicated mostly to handmade stuff。去做 site survey, 去参考, 去观摩。。。
有些梦想，被搁置了。。。但从未消失过。
“机会是给有准备的人。”
加油， 李佩佩你行的！！
实现了一些些事。
一月，去了台湾和香港， 台北101的烟火令人难忘。
十月，去了韩国，秋叶好美。
七月， 报读了 Nafa part-time abstract art painting course。
( 想了好多年， 终于有经济能力去提升自己！）
十一月， 第一次有画作展现在大众面前。
第一次有人买我的画作。
(啊， 感觉人生已没有什么遗憾了～哈哈！）
2013年。。。希望实现多一些些事。
一月, 我去了三个 craft / flea markets dedicated mostly to handmade stuff。去做 site survey, 去参考, 去观摩。。。
有些梦想，被搁置了。。。但从未消失过。
“机会是给有准备的人。”
加油， 李佩佩你行的！！
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